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Mother!

Jan. 8th, 2010 | 07:19 am
posted by: thn4me in proana4ever

wow so mom

MADE! me go to the dr today. I hate getting weighed there since you wear shoes and street clothes ugh i just cant wait to run back home and see what my scale says... anyways had to have bloodwork done : (

yesterday was my worst day since break... i just crashed.  had my usual 50ish cal breakfast but right around luch i had a craving for mac and chesse... eventually i gave in saying if you share it or limit yourself it wont be so bad but NO i ate soo much of it i felt awful alll day
it was even worse since i was already hiving family dinner which was supposed to be my splurge for the day so over all complete fail for today

i feel soo ashamed i dont wanna go back to school and face all my friends and exp the cheer team.  I mean my roommate is 5ft 5 and 110 lbs.... and she eats alllll the time... shes also like solid muscle nice toned abs everything... shes really good encouragement tho.... makes me feel like a fat ass

 First thing im doing when i get back to school is getting an electronic scale for my room i cant depend on the gym scale anymore im becoming too suspicious

not posting stats today... tomorrow will be a better day.


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insult, meet injury [curse]

Jan. 8th, 2010 | 01:51 am
mood: crying
posted by: skinnyftw in proana4ever

baking calms me down. even when im fasting, i can trust myself with baking. i dont eat a bit. not since ana. not since shes consumed me. My mom bought a huge box of cookie mix for the holiday season. we never got to it. i felt down (my best friend/brother just left for his house cross-country) and asked to make them. she didnt mind. or so she said...

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New

Jan. 8th, 2010 | 01:11 am
posted by: lbsforlbs in proana4ever

Hi. I'm new here. I am a "recovered" ed-nos. 25 years old, 5'3" with a min weight of 93 lbs, a max weight of 119 lbs. I currently weigh in at about 113 lbs. At my lowest, I experienced a series of dizzy spells, the worst in which I completely lost my vision for 10-20 minutes. I was essentially "scared straight," afraid that I was going to kill myself if I kept it up. Now, though, I'm falling back into my old ways because I just can't settle for being "soft" and chubby :( I just want to be at 100 lbs even. That's all. Let's hope I know when to stop and don't take it too far.

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Jan. 7th, 2010 | 11:12 pm
mood: apathetic apathetic
posted by: meg_uh_han in proana4ever

appraently ive lost ten pounds now. i should feel amazing but i dont. im still fat still a pig. i ate today. my metabolsim is slowing downi barely lost a pound today.. so i ate like a normal person in hopes of raising my metabolism so i can go back to resticting-fasting. i self harmed. totally personal but my fiance was like megaturned on by me and just kept touching me and rubbin my body.. i should b happier about that, but since i still feel fat and see fat. i cant. maybe if i loose ten more asap. i wont feel quite as disgusting??

this boy jessie called me hot today and was kinda flirtin with me.. why cant i get out of this crappy mood??? :(

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Jan. 7th, 2010 | 09:12 pm
posted by: pursuitofpretty in proana4ever


i finally had a better day than my last two days.
i love the happy feeling i get when i know that i did better than i did before.
i'm happy because i refused some chocolate, and drank like a litre of tea when i was at my grandmas house tonight.


yay.
hope you all are doing well!

xxxx

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ohhh noo :(

Jan. 7th, 2010 | 11:04 pm
posted by: beautyxhurts in proana4ever

Well, for the past 6 moths I have been in recovery. I've been well and happpy.
Maybe a little too happy.
I looked at my belly this morning in the mirror, and wanted to commit suicide.
I have a pudge now.
I don't know what to do.
I need you ladies & gentlemen to motivate me.
I'm in need.
thanks <3

cheers to flat stomachs and plastic hearts <3

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First Day

Jan. 7th, 2010 | 09:41 pm
mood: pissed off pissed off
posted by: melpinkxxx3 in proana4ever

So, I feel like a fat ass pig! I remember when I was 130 lbs. I'm 5'7'' and 166 lbs! This is so gross. I don't even know how I'm writing this write now. I'm so ashamed of myself. I don't understand how I could gain 36 lbs in half a year! I hope this site is any good because if I tell my friends about this they will laugh because they think I look fine. But, when I look in the mirror I see a fat ass girl that is nasty and shouldn't even be allowed to leave the house with tight clothes. I havent worn jeans ever since I gained weight and tight clothes... hoodies all the way :( I definetly know I lost my boyfriend because I got fat! I don't knwo what to do. I mean I ate like a pig and I know that I can't do this to myself anymore because I'm fatter than my mom :( IDK. I just hope that this site will encourage me on being ana.


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Jan. 7th, 2010 | 09:25 pm
posted by: hippieballerina in proana4ever

Hey Everyone!
This is my 1st time in this community.
I use to be a fan of "bodyperfect" but now its just filled with non-ana people who are seriously MEAN! Everything i write they are like "omg ur suppose to have 1200 calories a day...you must be a complete idiot"
I feel like that community turned into mean average-over weight people with an attitude.

How is this community? I would love support and nice people to relate to, i thought thats what these communities were all about ne ways?!

-Alexis

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Jan. 7th, 2010 | 07:17 pm
posted by: financegrl23 in proana4ever

weighed in at 115 at night after dinner. today i had a banana, 6 almonds, ice coffee, and a tuna sandwich on 70 cal bread (2 slices). i feel huge but my mom forces me to eat dinner. my therapist keeps making me nervous about losing weight apparently she said as i lose more weight i could have a seizure but i have weigh ins and blood tests monthly to check electrolites and i have been staying at a stable weight of between 112 to 115. now i just want to get back down to 112. so i'm hoping since i was 115 this morning and i just weighed in at 115 and i stopped eating at 6:30 i really hope that i will weigh 114 tomorrow. i'd be happy with that because i haven't weighed that in a while. it was weird i couldn't even eat the other half of my sandwich but i really cant just be eating like 400 cals a day. i did the whole 500 calorie a day thing for 6 months and lost like 15 pounds and i'm 5'3" so that makes a big difference and my metabolism slowed and i want to feel healthier and not have to worry about going into impatient or getting to that level. even though my bmi is not near that level yet and i just would be happy being around 112 and less. i'd feel better and more comfortable at that weight so i just need to stay out of the kitchen tonight. get to bed early and then hopefully weigh 114 in the morning. has anyone ever felt like they just cant eat more than 300 calories sometimes like they have to force themselves? i get depressed so that causes me to not be hungry. hope you all are well xoxo think thin

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HOLIDAY CRISIS.

Jan. 8th, 2010 | 12:11 am
posted by: starving2bthiin in proana4ever

 Ok crisis, i will most likely, go on holiday in 3 weeks for my 18th birthday, and i HAVE 2 loose 15 pounds.

5 pounds a week??

ok

plan...

500cals a day
PLUS
excercise


i have 2 do it.

i cant stand being fat. 

especially for my 18th in tenerife ;)


LOVE YOU ALL

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